God’s encouragement is always timely and strikes at the heart (even when it comes on Wordless Wednesday). I think He does this to make sure He has my attention.
I was offered the position of Women's Bible study leader, on the Women’s Ministry team at my church. When I was first approached about this position it was like a dream come true and an answer to my prayers. I had been seeking after the Lord for some time and asking Him what He wanted me to do. I had decided to go back to school. I was signed up and ready for classes, but I did not have God’s peace. The same day that I told my enrollment rep. that I would not be taking classes, I received a phone call from a woman at church about this position. I am convinced that this is what God has for me instead of school right now.
I still believe that this is the direction that God wants me to go, but last night I was filled with such doubt!
I am a perfectionist and I never want to do anything wrong. If I think for a moment that I might do something wrong I decide that it is better to just not do it. I am sure I have missed out on so many opportunities, because I was too afraid to try it and fail! This is the kind of freak out I was having last night. I am not qualified. What was God thinking when He picked me? I don’t have time for this. What if we move away? I was letting my doubts and fears trample my faith and trust in God. I wanted out.
Thankfully, I have been reading Me, Myself, and Lies By, Jennifer Rothschild, because I am going to teach this Bible study at my church. She has been teaching me that it is important to fill your mind with truth instead of worry. So in the middle of my freak out, I began to pray that God would bring someone else along to take thing position if I was not supposed to have it.
…but God had other plans….
This morning I received my daily email from Proverbs 31 Ministries (Ladies, keep up the amazing work, because God is using you to change my life.). The verse for the day says, "Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9 (NIV). Susan Meissner goes on to say, “The waiting room has its purpose. It is the place where you get mentally ready for what comes next. You are not meant to live there.”
I needed to hear these truths today. Don’t you see. God does not want me to live in fear of failure! God has things that He wants to accomplish through my life and He does not want me waiting around until I think I am perfect enough to get in the game. When God asks you to do something listen. If you do not do what God has asked, He will find someone else who will. I do not know about you, but I do not want to miss out on the blessings God has for me. I will not be perfect, but Christ is perfected in my weaknesses!
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Out of the Waiting Room
8 September 2010
Susan Meissner, She Reads Featured Author
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9 (NIV)
Picture a doctor's waiting room: cushioned chairs, a display of colorful magazines, soothing music wafting above your head, perhaps an aquarium of sparkling fish. Why does the doctor provide such a calming environment? Because he or she knows that by and large, people do not like to wait there. Truth is, we don't much like to wait anywhere for any length of time.
And we often cringe at the mere idea of waiting on God - more than any other kind of waiting. He is so frequently not in a hurry. We don't want to learn patience by waiting, though it is often the best way to learn it.
But consider for a moment the flip side. Consider for a moment those times when the waiting room door has been thrown open but we're still sitting in the chair by the fish, afraid to get up, get out and get moving. Sometimes we find ourselves in situations where we sense God nudging us to step out, but instead we're oddly content to just wait it out - perhaps hoping someone else will make the move we're supposed to make.
Just as there are times when God wants us to wait on Him; there are times when He calls us to action. And just as we need to listen for His voice in times of waiting, we need to obey His prompting when the wait is over.
When God told Moses to send spies into the land of Canaan, only two of the twelve came back from the mission ready to do what God was prompting them to do. The others wanted to head back to the waiting room, grab a magazine and hang out with the fish! They were afraid to move forward in faith, even though they had seen God time and again prepare a way for them in the wilderness and then lead them through it. God asked that these people take a step of faith and trust Him for what lay past the waiting room door. He didn't kick them out of the waiting room. He asked them to leave it, and they chose not to. History shows us what they missed (Numbers 13:26-14:25).
Are there perhaps blessings you have asked for but then have refused to pursue? Have you been hanging back in the waiting room – perhaps because you've allowed fear to convince you it's better to be safe and ineffective than risk being used by God?
The waiting room has its purpose. It is the place where you get mentally ready for what comes next. You are not meant to live there. You were designed for the world outside. And it waits for you!
Dear Lord, enable us this day to throw off self-doubts and fear so that we may obey You, serve You and live out our purpose for You. Fill us with Your Holy Spirit and empower us to do all that You have called and equipped us to do. Forgive us for being content with sitting in the waiting room when You've called us to come out. Ignite in us a passion to live our faith loudly. In Jesus' Name, Amen.